end of the year

This Thursday marks the end of a crazy school year. A lot happened, even more didn't. I went through too many obsessive crushes for my own good. In a big way, I'm glad it's over. In an entirely different part of me, I'm wishing it wouldn't end. I met a lot of new people, and came into my own. At any rate, it was a good start of high school.

Unlike last year, and all years before, my summer is not giving me any lazy days to recuperate. I get this Friday to fully recover from a nasty stomach bug, then Saturday is the Arabian Nights show. I get to sleep Sunday, then Monday I start drivers ed and theatre camp at UTEP. In addition to that, I need to find a monologue for the Midsummer Night's Dream auditions. If I make that, I'll have evening rehearsals as well.

Then, this August I'm working as a summer camp counselor at a Jewish temple. Why temple? Who knows. But I'm getting paid for it. I can already tell, next year will be even more insane. 

the show.

Tonight was the most amazing night of my life, my first performance ever in front of a sold out crowd and it went amazingly well. To start things off this morning I got my giant bag ready with costumes and an entire purse full of makeup. We went to pick up Arlette and my grandmother and then headed off to Las Cruces. We got to the bookstore and went to the bathroom immediately and took two hours to do hair and makeup, but it was worth it! Haha, my sister and I looked so good. Finally we went down the street to the theatre where we froze outside until we got up to the balcony.

At intermission we had to run outside, around the corner to the back so we could get backstage. Just picture it, five of us walking as fast as we can in the dark with crazy ass hooker makeup on. It was funny. When we got backstage the nerves started kicking in, we were all freaking out and talking all fast and scared. Ultimate bonding, yo. Then we had to go down to the stage to wait to go on. Of course it's fucking pitch black behind the curtain and none of us can see anything. I almost tripped over this random slab of wood that's just there. It was hilarious, we were all like reaching for each others faces and asking "who's this?" and just dancing to calm our nerves. My heart was racing by then and I had to keep breathing all slow to try and calm myself down.

When we went on it was like everything melted away though. I had the most fun I had ever had in my life, and I would not exchange it for anything in the world. I was smiling the entire time and I finally understood how life changing performing is. I could see all the people smiling back up at me, and knowing it was because they enjoyed my dancing and the fact that I was loving what I was doing made me feel like I was on top of the world. All I could think about when I got off stage was how much I wanted to do this all again.

After the show we went backstage and changed then we all went for a Burger King run. It was the perfect end to an awesome day, haha. I was so happy that I got to spend it with my best friend Arlette (who did my hair for the show ;]). It was so cool that I got to be with her during such an important moment in my life. 

Oh man.

It's been ages. Apologies, apologies. My life has been busy. Tomorrow will be my first belly dance performance and the show is sold out. I'm excited, yet so freaked out at the same time. But, I can't chicken out now. $75 costume and then another $50 (more or less) worth of makeup. I can't take any of it back now.

I've become obsessed with the show Wizards of Waverly Place, mainly due to the fact that David Henrie is the most gorgeous boy I've ever seen in my life. Unfortunately he's unattainable. That's sadly how things usually turn out for me.

Last week I performed my first "real role" per say. I played Othello in Shakespeare's "Othello" for our class project in Desdemona's death scene. Got to love those gender-swapping roles. It was good considering the day before I was home with a 100 degree fever and the fact that I can't walk or stand like a guy for the life of me. But, really it was a success in my opinion. Bonus, I got to say whore in front of my principal. Now we're reading Romeo and Juliet in English and if I'm lucky I might get to read the balcony scene with the guy I like this Monday. I can dream. 

In other news... I've started learning gibberish. Idigts fidigun. I'm a dork, I know. Well then, I don't know what else to write about other than I think I might faint on stage tomorrow. Wish me luck.

Barrack O'Bollywood hahaha

Wow, so the past couple of weeks have been crazy! Just, due date after due date. School still manages to be fun though, somehow. So, I went to see Slumdog Millionaire for the second time, and it was great, then I got assigned the craziest role ever for theatre (woot, Othello!), and it's a murder scene too. Then, debates in Geography, the list goes on.

So, this weekend I went to see the Vagina Monologues performed at UTEP, and it was fantastic, got a t-shirt and two buttons. PUSSIES UNITE! Haha, then the next night I went to see The Last Five Years performed at Center Stage, and it was amazing as well. Extremely sad, too. 

This weekend is Bellydance Superstars and the Oscars! I can't wait to see what dancers are gonna be here! And I'm so excited to see what awards Slumdog is gonna get! So many nominations! 

Speaking of the Oscars, hopefully *fingers crossed* M.I.A. will be performing O...Saya and Jai Ho with A.R. Rahman at them. That is, if she's recovered by then. If you haven't heard yet, M.I.A. gave birth to her healthy baby boy this Wednesday. I'd like to give a big congrats to her, and I wish her and her son the best! If all goes well the new momma will be able to perform (nothing stopped her at the Grammys- on her due date) but who knows, only time will tell.

Also! This Tuesday, HSM3 comes out on DVD! I'm going to be buying it that day, for sure! and after this weekend, my Friday night UTEP movie tradition starts up again! I can't wait, there'll be some good ones this year, so far I know we're going to see, Towelhead, Milk, Doubt, Gonzo, and Choke. My life can truly be called eventful now!

World Town

I'm in love with life right about now. I've just been blessed recently, I'm not sure how. I've found that it's become much simpler for me to appreciate the small things in life. And that's the best you can do I suppose.

I've never been happier just seeing good films on weekends and going out for dinner with my father and going out for chai right after. I look forward to all those little things that really make my life worth while. And even on weekdays I'm content doing school work and solving math problems with one of my favorite people. I like sitting in desks with fluorescents shining up above. It gives me thrills to watch my favorite shows online and get texts when I don't expect them. 

I want to give back, because it makes me feel accomplished knowing that on the other side of the world someone's benefitting from me. I'm finally comfortable with just being who I am, going with the flow of things. I've never been more content and completely ecstatic in my life.

Slumdog Millionaire

Oh man, so this movie was absolutely amazing. I saw it last night, made my dad drive me to the other side of town because that's the only place they're playing it. But really, if you haven't seen it yet you need to. It's one of the best films I've seen. Ever. 

So, Slumdog Millionaire is the story of Jamal Malik, a boy who grew up in the slums with his brother Salim. When they are still very young, their mother is killed during one of the Muslim-Hindu riots. Jamal and Salim meet Latika during the incident and become close friends, calling themselves the three musketeers. Jamal falls in love with Latika and when they are separated while trying to escape from a gangster who trains slum children to be singing beggars, he makes it his soul purpose to find her again. Eventually Salim begins working for another gangster in Mumbai and Jamal as a "chai-walla" at an Indian call centre in Mumbai. In order to find Latika, Jamal goes on the Indian version of Who Wants to be a Millionaire, in hopes that she'll be watching. But when Jamal gets to the final question, the show and the Mumbai police suspect cheating. While being interrogated, Jamal explains the story behind his knowledge of the answer to each question. Jamal is allowed back on the show and he is finally reunited with Latika when he calls his brother's cell phone (which is in Latika's possesion) while using the Phone a Friend lifeline. 

Tomorrow, tomorrow! I love ya! Tomorrow!

Finally! Second semester starts tomorrow! I'm so excited, I get to experience social interaction again!

So for the past couple of days I've been: avoiding my science fair project, watching That 70s Show religiously, bumming around with my sister and pets, and singing. A lot. It's been extremely boring, just because I got into this weird routine of waking up around 9, staring at my work, then eating and watching TV all day and feeling guilty about ignoring my homework. School is a beacon of hope for me.

Today I actually got to get out of the house, Carly and I went to belly dancing. Oh my gosh, I hadn't danced in weeks and I already know I'll be sore tomorrow. But it was definitely worth it, I love dancing, complete stress release. 

Then we came home and I watched High School Musical for the fifty billionth time. She wanted to watch it to calm her nerves about school, since it starts with them returning from winter vacation. Ahh, I love that movie. It just makes you happy.

And, here I am now. I need to go to bed so I'm not a zombie the first day back. That would be bad. Well, toodles!

hullo.

It's finally the new year! I've made so much progress in every aspect of my life over the last year, and I'm very glad for that. I hope to start off clean when we get back to school. I've cleaned up my room completely so I now live in a much better environment, it allows me to breathe easier. 

So, the past two days I spent the night at my grandmother's house because the furnace at my house was messed up. Thankfully it's all fixed now, I started to miss my bed, although it was nice to be able to play the Wii whenever I liked. And watch movies on a huge HD tv.

But, since my sister and I didn't really get to go anywhere while we were there, we decided last night when we were sitting at home, we wanted to go to a movie. So, we went to Cinemark to see Marley & Me. I won't give any of it away, but it was the saddest movie ever. I was very surprised. I think the entire theatre was crying, I had tears literally streaming down my face. It was very good, though Carly and I both loved it. Of course now we both had to read the book. 

yesssssssssss!!!!!!

Everything is finally working out for me! Life is wonderful! GAH! This is the best thing ever!

woot!

Today was fabulous! At first I felt really sick and crappy but now I'm doing much better. I got a haircut today, and I love it! I have bangs again!

After my haircut, I went with Arlette to the Hal Marcus art studio to see a performance by the Shimmy Sisters, it was great. After the show, we went around to see the different vendors and saw our belly dance instructor. I also bought a pair of earrings and a tape measurer bracelet, they're both so cute! All the people there were awesome too. A portrait painter there introduced himself to me and told me I had an amazing face, but I didn't get to exchange numbers because it was during the performance and people were passing by like crazy. Then Arlette and I got our pictures taken for the newspaper. And oh my god, I LOVE Laileinia's husband! He's in the band that does the Shimmy Sisters' music and not only is he adorable, he's also freakin' hilarious and awesome! When I was buying my earrings from him I asked how much they were and he's like, "How much do you wanna pay?" So I'm like, "Uhh... five dollars?!" "Sure! They're yours!" It was great and he was just talking to us telling us we all get a

 discount because we belly dance. The whole lot of people there was just so cool, it was like artist heaven! I loved it.

my bracelet

my earrings!

Oh, and today I found the video of my father dancing with the Shimmy Sisters on youtube, it's hilarious, enjoy! My dad is the first guy they bring on stage, the one who looks like a dork haha. My belly dance instructor is also featured in the video as well as all of the girls who participated in the Arabian Nights show at UTEP. Yay, Karisha!

wow.

So, I haven't updated in almost a month! A lot has happened, too. This week is finals week, and I'm so happy I'm exempt from everything! That means I just have to come in for forty-five minutes every morning this week and then I can leave! I consider winter to break to have already started for me.

Today was such a good day! It just got better and better as the day progressed. First, in World Geography we had a "party" which basically consisted of us watching some dumb christmas theme movie whilst eating crappy food that people brought. But, I can't complain too much, since we didn't have to do anything all period. Then, in P.E. we did nothing. I got to listen to my ipod all period, which wasn't too exciting. So, I wrote Arlette a letter on an index card. Haha.

Finally, I got to Biology, where I watched Enchanted for the first time. Yes, I know, I'm way behind. But, none the less, I LOVED it. It was completely adorable and dorky. I love movies like that, my inner dork needs to shine through!

Then, Geometry. It was like, the moment of truth in that class because Mrs. Galvez got her class schedule for next semester. I was so happy when I saw that ALL of my friends are still going to be in the same class next year! The rest of the day I just spent talking with Alan and Arlette, which I always enjoy. Then I went over to Arlette's to hang out and eat dinner. I love her mom's food. Oh my god. But, it was cool, because I didn't think her mom really liked me, but then today Arlette was joking around saying something about me never being to their before and her mom was like "Oh, whatever! She's a part of this house!" It made me feel so good! 

Well, that's about it. I'll update again this weekend, because somehow I think the most exciting thing I'll be doing this week is sleeping. Woooo!

au revoir

ahh, procastination

So! Right now I should be...

1. Writing a review for Cat on a Hot Tin Roof

2. Reading Great Expectations and,

3. Doing an English worksheet. 

Am I doing any of the above? Of course not! I'm gonna wait till the last possible second, like I always do! 

Anywho, I haven't updated here in a while, save my little wish list. God, I can't wait for christmas. I've been brainwashing myself for the past week listening to Sunny 99.9, all they've been playing since the beginning of November is Christmas songs. I love it.

I really have nothing else to say. Oh well.

Christmas Wishlist

It would mean a lot to me if this holiday you could try and donate to TWLOHA. The organization's purpose hits close to home and I'd love to see them getting help this holiday.

• TWLOHA Paramore shirt
• Make a donation here.
• Belly dancer t-shirt
• Urban Decay Ammo Plus Primer set
• American Apparel Online Gift Certificate
• High School Musical 3 Poster

There will be more to come...

Oh yeah,

I forgot to say this- 

So, Friday I went and saw HSM3 again, and it was even better the second time. I was 10x more annoying this time also. It was great.

Other than that I did pretty much nothing this weekend.

But, one last thing...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CASSADIE!

SAY ANYTHING SELF-TITLED ALBUM IS COMING OUT NEXT YEAR!

Max Bemis just posted a blog to inform fans that "Say Anything," their new self titled album will be coming out this upcoming year. The band will begin recording this winter in L.A. Max explained to fans that "Say Anything" (originally planned to be titled "this is forever") is going to be a chance for him to resolve all the conflict brought up in previous Say Anything albums.

"if any person has followed our band, they understand our albums tell the story of a simple dude (me) and his evolution in life. this is the part where, having gone through his "idealistic--yet-furious-virgin" phase (baseball), young "drunk-angry-pukey-sex" phase (is a real boy), his "reaping - the - benefits - of - years - of - self - abuse - by - being - stuck - in - a - terrible -relationship" phase (in defense of the genre), he is finally confronted with the question of what the point of all of it was. what is the moral of the story? why be in a band? why try to "get" the girl? you spend years bitching or hurting yourself and others until you realize there is really something to fight for and something to fight against and being a man means drawing the line. that, my friends, is where the real adventure begins. 

this album is self titled for a reason; it will take all the musical and lyrical themes of every say anything song, and attempt to resolve them and infuse them with something pure and direct."- Max Bemis (myspace blog)

Aside from this project, Max Bemis will also be releasing an album with his side project band Two Tongues. In the band with him is Chris Conley, lead singer of Saves the Day and object of admiration to Max Bemis. Two Tongues' self-titled debut will be out February 3, 2009.

Now my opinion on the matter: HOLY FUCKING SHIT I AM SO EXCITED, I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS ALBUM FOR MONTHS!!!! 

If you didn't know it already- Say Anything is my favorite band and Max Bemis is way up there on my "favorite people in the world" list, so this news is monumental to me. I'm so glad Max is writing an album that will try to resolve all the crap he's gone through. It's really meaningful to me, because I've gone through similar phases (not nearly as extreme though) and his music has always comforted me and made me feel not so alone. I'm finally at a time of peace in my life and I'm glad to see he's getting there too.

Squee! This is so exciting!

The Vote By a Landslide: Barack Obama

My faith in this country has finally been restored. No crying, no moving to Canada, no cursing, or yelling, or throwing. Life seems so much better now.

Barack Obama has been elected to be the 44th president. He will be the first African American in office. This day will go down in the history books, twenty or thirty years from now I'll be able to tell my children, I watched Obama win, I listened to that speech on November 4th, 2008. I am honored to be able to tell my children that I watched Barack Obama change history.

Yes We Can.

TOMORROW IS ELECTION DAY!

Tomorrow! Ahh, it's so exciting! I'm going to be up all night tomorrow waiting for the final results. I swear if Obama doesn't win I'm going to cry. Hopefully that won't be a problem. Fingers crossed.

elections and hsm 3...

I'm fucking freaking out about this Tuesday. Only two days till we know who our future president will be. Hopefully it's Obama. If not, I'll see you all in Canada.

Okay, so yesterday I went to see High School Musical 3. Let me fill you in, I HATED the first two movies. They made me want to kill infants. So I went to see this one reluctantly with my friend Teagan, almost as a joke. To my surprise, I got way too into that movie. And I loved it. I felt like THE biggest dork in the universe because I was totally laughing my ass off and squealing through the movie, much like the majority of the 5 year old audience in the theatre along with me. I have no doubts I was the oldest person in there, minus the annoyed parents of said 5 year olds. But fuck it man, I had fun. Yes, I'm a dork.

skinny love

I still can't bring myself to draw anything with meaning behind it. It's a sad thing for me to have to admit. It pains me to think of it. 

I hope that tomorrow things aren't as awkward with alan as they were on friday. Again, on a pathetic note, I'm relying far too much on this for happiness, for inspiration. This weekend has been strange and fairly unhappy. Or, maybe that's not the right word, I think indifferent is better. I was just put in an overly strange mood over his actions. It wasn't how I see him.

Oh well.

au revoir

the words are written in the air

I'm having major artistic problems. I think I need to take a break from drawing to get some inspiration. That way I'll be able to concentrate on writing as well.

Today I watched "The Life Before Her Eyes." I cried. It was beautiful.